Infinitely Seeking Health

So, you have decided to lose weight. You have decided on a plan or program that you are going to follow. You have obsessed over meal planning and water bottles. You have searched high and low for the cutest and most inspirational food log that you could find and then it happens...you go to weigh in and you have gained or stayed the same. Yikes! Suddenly panic and emotions take over your body and you begin to think about every single thing you've done in the days prior to the scale betraying you. You wonder, "Did I consume enough water?", "Perhaps, I miscalculated one of my meals!", etc., etc.! Losing weight is hard. Every single person who has gone through what you are going through has been there. They understand the emotions, the disappointment and the wishing that it would go faster, but the fact is, it is hard work and there is no magic pill or trick that is going to make it easier. There are, however, some things that might be getting in your ...

Just over one year ago I had reached a point of having given up on life. I was not suicidal, but I was miserable and broken. Mentally I was useless and physically I was suffering constantly. I couldn't remember my own gate code, let alone read a book or magazine. I thought that I was losing my mind (not in some dramatic, I have to make this post good way; I was in a scary place. I thought I was going crazy and I worried that I would need to be hospitalized for it.). I knew that chronic pain had taken a toll on me, but I also knew that there was something else very wrong with me. I truly have no idea how much I weighed at that point, but I can tell you that I was inching ever closer to three hundred pounds (that kills me to even type). The last time I had been to the doctor and actually allowed them to weigh me, I was two hundred and fifty seven pounds, that was at least a year prior to this point and I know that I had gained weight. I couldn't find one thing to be happy about ...